About today

If I could go back to three years ago today, I can't say I would have done it any differently. I would have washed my hair, applied my lipstick and adorned my neck with my mother's pearls all over again.

There are plenty of things I would have done differently, but being there - in that room, with you, when neither of us could find the right words to say - isn't likely one of them. I can say this because at that moment, my heart was actually - for once - completely open and vulnerable and in the most hopeful of places - and there is nothing more beautiful than that.

If there's one thing I miss, it's that foolish, hopeless optimism that led me to that very place, where love is not yet acquainted with the harshness of reality and the endless imperfections of humanness.